 Heresy: God Committed Suicide Today as I was leaving the kiss-and-drop lane at the high school where my son is a student, I decided to turn on the radio.
And a song came on K-Love. It was about the cross. I began to listen to the words, and knowing it, started to even sing along some. Then it hit me! I thought about this cross of Jesus. I thought about the said sacrifice. Of how he laid down his life. And I queried in my soul, "Is this message of the cross that God committed suicide?"
Did God according to fundamental principles, become man, and take the dismal notion, "I don't want to live if living is without you." ?
Was there no other way for the Almighty and All-knowing God to effect salvation for man? And did He not do this to himself? For even the Bible says that he laid down his own life.
Does one ever truly look at the cross of Christ without feeling or at the very least, remembering a guilt? And doesn't that guilt in part, maintain the relationship in many Christians lives and service rather than the pure and unabashed love that is freely given?
I have come to explore the thought processes of suicide, and have come to the conclusion that it is a very selfish act. And controlling.
I know in bygone days how I have exalted the cross of Christ for the selflessness of the Lord. But in further reflection today, I am wondering if others have ever wrestled with these other negative thoughts I am having today.
Thoughts of a morbid gospel.
I am sure that these thoughts are springing up from my emotional center rather than my reasonable self. Still they must be dealt with and I am daring to gain understanding in my relationship with God as well as with others.
OhDear |