Sorry dear...But relationships imply more then one relationship. Otherwise you would have said relationship. And I've disproven you on that observation, period...Because there were no 'relationships' after the 2 previous marriages, that were abusive...Just one dear. And like I've explained, it was a calculated risk on my own part being in that 'relationship'...

And honestly honey, just as with pointing out Gary overstating the number of previous marriages by only 2 when the total is still 10, pointing out that you only had 1 abusive boyfriend but then stating that you never had love in 2 abusive marriages doesn't add support to your argument.

I also haven't had 'multiple marriages' in the sense you want to use it...that of multiple bad marriages...I've had a couple bad marriages, but not multiple...

You had a couple of loveless abusive marriages. Using YOUR logic, just using the word "bad" is an extreme understatement. But I'm not gonna point that out, because it's petty.

So again, your observation is still disproven but for the exception that the marriages were entered into and end in divorce was instigated because of my prior abuse as a child. That we do agree on.

Well damn.

But as to the ONE boyfriend and that particular situation that got me involved into a relationship with him in the first place? My earlier childhood and 2 marriage experiences weren't a part of that happening. My desire to fight drugs were the catalyst for my being with him in the first place. As was the exotic dancing job as well.

So you were a cop then? Having a job as an undercover cop is a different situation then. But if you just volunteered to drop trou as a stripper because of some extreme desire to fight drugs, that's friggin insane.

Which actually did me good, both experiences. They were both hard things to go through, yes...Because I had to overcome my own personal phobias/pains to get into those situations. But it was a different kind of bad because there was a positive reason for being in both of those positions. As well as both experiences giving me a positive outlook and perspective of myself going through them. Because before entering those situations, I had a very low self esteem about myself in general...And doing them gave me a purpose for the first time in my life. Thanks to both of those experiences, I came out of it actually liking myself for the first time and feeling that I was worth more then just being thrown away. Of having the strength to stand up for what I believed in, as well as believing in myself of being able to make that change.

And if that's the case, then I too am proud of you. But if you were THAT screwed up, how can you not blame that on your childhood experience?

By the way, you should be thankful for me not telling the whole story of how that relationship ended that night when he put the gun in my mouth... Talk about a house filling up with guests quickly...

Not amused at all by the situation honestly.